ADD

I have just come to the conclusion that I probably have Adult ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder).

For years I have been plagued with a chronic difficulty in finding order and flow in life. Yes I have found moments of relative ease and orderedness, but generally a sense of chaos and confusion is just below the surface. Though being of above average intelligence I often feel utterly stupid!

My brain does not seem to do sequencing - it constantly wants to take me off on tangents. This can lead to creative insights - thinking "outside the box" is not difficult for me. The problem is that without some kind of sequencing, I can not communicate or develop creative ideas in a way which is useful for others. Nor can I get to completion! I have projects galore at some level of development which could easily stay on the "back burner" for life.

This blog is an exploration of ADD and a log of my progress to get Beyond the Jam to a place of creative ease and flow. Rather than seeing myself as "lazy", "self-defeating" or "weak willed", I choose to see myself as someone with many creative abilities, but whose brain is not naturally disposed to acquiring the skill set that is required for planning, organisation, sequencing etc.

My challenge is to learn those skills.

Jam